i was born and raised in Cali. no matter how far i may be, my heart will always dwell in the San Diegan beaches. To be clear, im not moving out of hate or revelry. ive gotten to the point in my life when im tired of talking about making a change, im ready to "walk the talk". im both excited and scared, its really a mixture of feelings, i dont really know what to expect, but my faith and trust is in God. Thanks to all the people who have helped me become the person i am today, including those who thought they could bring me down, as u can see its only helped me grow... so instead of being mad and holding a grudge i have to say thank you=] God has blessed me with amazing friends, i wish i could take u all with me, but u all have your dreams to fulfill, and i encourage you to present those dreams to God, with his help, they WILL come true;]
I still dream of Anncey, Mountain Everest, Chinese Food (in China), Africa... well wow.. its a long list, but ive already checked off one--Utah. Sure Brigham City is small compared to Paris, but its a start... its my new beginning=]
KEEP IN TOUCH!!

much love,
Cari Michelle<3

Dream Dress....

You know that feeling that you get when you find that one piece of clothing that seems to take your breath away the moment your skin and the silky cotton become one? And to top off the beauty of it all is less then 20 Benjamins or a Jackson?
Yes... i have found my dream dress... I didn't believe in love at fist sight, until my eyes fell upon a frame of artwork sown by Aphrodite herself. She used a thread of joy and a thread of tears; poetically she chose a combination of life and death. The dress gives me the urge to dance with my bare feet on a mile of mountains that touch the starts, and stirs my heart to a puddle of confession.
Not insane, rather perfectly described: Yes... its true...i have found my dream dress

a red rose blooms in a field of thorns

As always i was thinking. I came to an understanding... a "kaboom!" :


What beauty lies in imperfection.

joyeux

my body shouts with happiness
and its all because of JESUS=]]

"keep spinin' round and round" = my head

So, today i realized how much I've really changed.
I used to never see the evil side of any one , but after many cuts and bruises, i see everything soo differently. The evil and corruption of one's own humanity is repulsive. "Generation of snakes" comes short to what we have become or rather said to what we have always been. We dip our lives in mud. We cover our hearts with miles of dirt. We feel nothing. wait we do feel: we feel anger and regret, we feel jealousy and POWER. the power to let our tongues loose, a tongue with the ability to construct and destruct.
The more my analytical mind analyzes our slithering ways...
the more my heart sinks with pain, with happiness, with wonder, with awe.
Yet...God doesn't care. Our creator loves us any way. Even though i know i will never understand, my entire mind body and soul strive for an answer, for a reason, in the end its always the same response:
"I CREATED , I FORMED , I LOVED, I LOVE, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE...YOU!!!!"
all i can do is just weep with a mind full of answered questions,but of unsolved mysteries.
weep with a heart full of deceit, full of anger, full of the love God has given me.
weep with a body that has broken, hurt, healed by God's hands.
God is the hope that this world has. He is all we have.
Ooh Lord... have mercy on me!!! my everything shouts "HAVE MERCY OOH LORD!"
Jesus... what else can i say, what else can i give you... i know 3 laguages and all i come up with is
"thank you... a million-bazillion times thank you..."

je suis...

im the girl who's a complete JESUS freak, the one who loves her partially insane family!:]] [[jaja]] Im the one that every one wants to change, but im firm in my own identity, and nothing or no one, except JESUS, can change that...what other people say about me, whether good or bad, it can only help me out for the best=]] Im the girl with an addiction to pizza... and a tendency to blush as i laugh my heart out. Im a sweet young lady,but dont let that fool you, God has given me the strength for any hardship coming way [[they only make me stronger]]. Im the girl who enjoys the presence of others but loves to have time to herself: read books, write songs, sing, dance obnoxiously, and sometimes just sit down... looking up at the ceiling and think about life and its wonders. Im the one from both ends of the spectrum: i like rock, classical, scremo, opera. Im the one that has dreams of climbing mountain Everest, starring in a major film, living in France, singing for God while playing my guitar, and im not willing to let any guy or any "friend" get in the way. im the one who enjoys cooking, best part: making my own recipe. The silly one often heard speaking with an accent for no apparent reason... im the girl with no favorite color, or mall, or sport, or designer. But that dont mean i dont enjoy a run, new clothes, screaming at the players... some how hoping they can hear me through the t.v., or dont like fashion. I am myself and no one else, so love me for who i am, and if you don't, im OK with that. Dont ever forget to smile!!
i hope you hundreds of BLESSINGS=]] ~CARI!<3>