"keep spinin' round and round" = my head

So, today i realized how much I've really changed.
I used to never see the evil side of any one , but after many cuts and bruises, i see everything soo differently. The evil and corruption of one's own humanity is repulsive. "Generation of snakes" comes short to what we have become or rather said to what we have always been. We dip our lives in mud. We cover our hearts with miles of dirt. We feel nothing. wait we do feel: we feel anger and regret, we feel jealousy and POWER. the power to let our tongues loose, a tongue with the ability to construct and destruct.
The more my analytical mind analyzes our slithering ways...
the more my heart sinks with pain, with happiness, with wonder, with awe.
Yet...God doesn't care. Our creator loves us any way. Even though i know i will never understand, my entire mind body and soul strive for an answer, for a reason, in the end its always the same response:
"I CREATED , I FORMED , I LOVED, I LOVE, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE...YOU!!!!"
all i can do is just weep with a mind full of answered questions,but of unsolved mysteries.
weep with a heart full of deceit, full of anger, full of the love God has given me.
weep with a body that has broken, hurt, healed by God's hands.
God is the hope that this world has. He is all we have.
Ooh Lord... have mercy on me!!! my everything shouts "HAVE MERCY OOH LORD!"
Jesus... what else can i say, what else can i give you... i know 3 laguages and all i come up with is
"thank you... a million-bazillion times thank you..."